Thoughts of a Sprite

Friday, December 03, 2004

Finally able to update due to:

Computer Problems!

Thoughts for the Day:

Whenever you see darkness, there is extraordinary opportunity for the light to burn brighter.-~Bono

A real friend never gets in your way - unless you happen to be on the way down.-
~Dr. Wayne Dyer

On to my Thoughts:

I so would have updated like 12 times since my last, but my pc would not let me, so I have much to talk about, you can't say that I didn't warn you!

I am graduating next Friday, and I am really excited. I took my test in Trig yesterday, and I had to get a 93 in order to be exempt from the final, and I got a 93. So not only is my 4.0 still in tact (Thank you God, oh and Larry for his hours of tutoring) but I don't have to take the final. So my last class at Santa Fe' ever, was last night. I will graduate with my 4.0 (yeah I just had to say it again,) Phi Theta Kappa, and National Deans List... And I am very proud!!! Woot woot!

Well I invited my Father, step mom, brother and sister... really just hoping that my father would show up, being that I am the first person from either of my families to graduate with any kind of degree... and he didn't even have the decency to call me to tell me he is not going to make it. I am really tired of having a one way relationship with this man. Even going back as far as May, when I had my knee surgery... He never called to see how I was doing. Then in October... I told him I was having surgery and I have either Pre-cancer or Cancer, and he never called. Now I called Judy to ask what size pj's my sister wears for a Christmas gift, and she says “oh, by the way, I am sorry we won't make it for your graduation.” And changed the subject. I was like that is okay I didn't expect you to come anyhow. I tried to blow it off like it was no big deal, but ya know what, it is. It bothers me that my sister graduates from highschool with a 4.0 and he buys her a brand new 2004 Jeep Wrangler, a Libertly edition, with all the trimmings, both a hard top and a soft top... Now all I asked for was his presence. If nothing else, It would have been nice for him to call and say, “kiddo I am proud of you, but I can't come.” He has more money than he knows what to do with, he could have flown down here for the after noon… There is even an airport in Gainesville. Grrr…. It just kind of hurts, just the slightest little bit. I am his kid too, and you know what, I am his first kid. Not my fault that I was from a different marriage, not my fault that he and my mother didn't get along. Oh well I am over it. It will be a cold day in hell before I call him again. Merry Flipping X-mas Dad!
End Rant/

*Deep Breath* I went shopping on Wednesday. Took the day off, to take mom Christmas shopping.... Funny how shopping, even just talking about it, makes me feel so much better. I got all of my Christmas shopping done, with the exception of two gift certificates that I have to pick up locally. Feels good to have that out of the way! I found pretty much everything that I was looking for. I spent entirely too much money. Matter of fact, I know someone who is going to be slightly upset with me, but se la ve' right? As he says "you only live once."

I don't know what I am thinking on the man front. I really like this guy, like I haven't felt like this in forever, I could even venture to say I could easily fall for him, right smack into a long term relationship. It is confusing and exciting all at once. But he can be so aggravating. He is hot and cold, One minute he acts like Mr. Boyfriend, and the next he is totally “we're just friends, lets take this slow.” Which is good. I am going to say lets just be friends then for a while. I don't want to rush into anything, especially where I could get hurt.

While I was shopping the other day, I found a jacket on sale for 29 bucks… it is good, because it is heavy enough for Florida… I am hoping to finish a poem I have been working on. I am a little rusty at this type of poetry. I haven't written anything positive about the "L" word in a long time, so I guess you could say it is love poem... no not about him... Don't get your panties in a twist... I am just exercising my mind...

Oh back to what all happened on Wednesday, I also got a new phone... Yep a camera one! I so totally needed a new phone, have been using the same one for well over two years now, and it was just falling apart. The most awesomest thing about this one is that it has a camera too! Yeah... And a color screen, and the capability to download rings... and wallpapers...

I have to work tonight at my other job... I think I am going to quit soon, I just want to make sure that my student loan goes through, or I will be needing the money! I am just burnt out on working all the time, it would be nice to have a break before classes start back up you know, like have a weekend where I get off at 1600on Friday, and not even have to think of work or homework for that matter, until 630 Monday morning.... Right? It has been a long time since that has happened. I deserve a break I think.

Last bit of news I promise: T - 17 Days until I move... I think (we will hopefully find out today) I am totally stoked! Well Dears, I am going to close, cause I know I have just bored the ever living piss out of all of you! But hey.... I needed to update it has been forever.... I am sure I could go on, but I am going to go.

shes_a_sprite @ 3:00 PM.

1 comments

Rachel said...

Congrats on the graduation, it must be really exciting and you worked so hard. :)

It really upset me to read about your dad, I mean he doesn't know how good he has it. My dad would give anything to be able to see me graduate and yet he can't, where you dad has the oppurtunity to see you and he should really look at what he has and not take you for granted. *hug*

I hope you plan on posting this piece at Lyrical. :)

6:28 AM